Two things:1) I got sent home early, so I decided to come on park with friends but they were busy, one mate wanted to come on park so I said I would go with her and found out that she doesn't like rides. OMG! I wasted 2 hrs for nothing. I also heard that some of our lot from here (TPM) would be on-park but couldnt find them because 1) Don't have their number obv forgot to ask them for it and 2) No battery. I was incredibly useless and forgot to charge my phone and I feel like kicking myself in the head. OMG I am sooooo stupid. It's been a crap week, a really crap one!2) First of all, I fail at being straight - I am straight, I like girls and couldn't see it any other way. I want to be a father and have a nice amount of kids n have a wifey one day. When I see guys who are uglier/treat girls like s**t/not nice/racist etc all the bad things/qualities that I am NOT and they have girlfriends I wonder wtf is wrong with me? I get really self-concious and paranoid. I think to myself: Am I fat? Am I ugly? What do I do wrong? Am I just not funny even though everyone at in class at college says I am.There are times when I feel like giving up but yet I just think and feel that the best things are worth waiting for, so I hold on for the good things that may come. I feel that my lucky might change and meet a girl that well you know...you get the picture.