I have absolutely had enough and I'm beyond furious. I am sick and bloody tired of how much **** I get from some people on these forums, being told I'm annoying. I don't think people actually understand, that I can't help being annoying. I'm not annoying all the time or even most of the time but actually occasionally.If no-one on here knew, I have Autism, it is a social and communication disability and about four people on these forums have what I have. Who they are, I won't say and will respect their privacy. But it makes me unbelievably upset and enraged when people who have been here a long time or even short-time, know I have this problem and still give me stick for it.Like I said, I can be annoying occasionally just like everyone can be annoying but is that enough reason to hate me? Does anyone know on here know what hate is or how to hate someone? One person whose been here a long time, said he hates me because I'm annoying. He said he knows it's not my fault but yet he still hates me. Just because someone is annoying, that's enough of a reason to hate someone? Unless people here have Aspergers, they don't know how it feels to have it. How it feels to feel like a freak, an outsider, that people are talking crap about them behind their back.I'm not a bad person by far and I know I am a very good person. If I was such a horrible, hate-inducing person, would I have friends, family that love me and love around me?I don't like talking on MSN or on Facebook because I don't understand the context, in which something is said, like when people use exclamation marks, use sarcasm or talk in capitals, but yet..I try to overcome this. I don't know what to say and sometimes say things which are inappropiate but yet I try to think before I speak. I didn't come to the meet-up last Sunday because I didn't have money and I didn't think anyone would've been happy to see me or would have wanted to hang around with me. It makes me feel inadequate, depressed because I feel I am a horrible, hateful person and I feel akward in social situations. I didn't come to the meet-up because it's painful and I think some people are too, too nice to say anything. However, I will speak up!There are people who don't talk to me anymore because I am annoying. I never knew how prejudice or alienation people like me recieved. It's not my fault, I don't do it on purpose, I'm not an attention seeker nor do I feel sorry for myself but it's really getting me down and yet..I try to improve and become a better person. I do this because I want to become a better person. There are many of you lot on here that are beyond annoying but I don't say anything, I accept it and take the good with the bad, but yet it doesn't work that way with me. The truth is, I really like you guys a hell-of-a-lot and think the world of you, because I feel that I fit in here with you guys / girls at TPM and but at the same time, I feel weird and like an outsider.Where is Lady Gaga, when I need her to liberate me, from my fears and insecurities and to stop feeling like a ****ing freak?