I don't usually post in topics like these, but I need to get all this off my chest.
Basically, I'm madly in love with a guy who feels the same way, but unfortunately this person is in an "open" relationship and can't easily see me. It's absolutely killing me and causing this gut-wrenching sadness. It doesn't help that I'm 30 and still not out to anyone.
I have something else going on in my life which is also slowly consuming me - It's taking over and not letting me live. I should be happy and looking forward to my trip to PA, but instead I'm giving into this thing the whole time and letting it control me. It's scary and I wish it'd go away.
I'm actually a strong person and never let on that I have problems. For once it's becoming a bit too much.
Sorry for this silly post, but I really need to get this out of my system.